Dear L,
It was so nice to see you. It was hard to watch you go. I know that our son was upset when you had to leave again. He will be extremely happy when you take him for awhile. I know he misses you deeply. I'm glad you liked the park and the house. It isn't much but it is a safe place, and it is a clean place. A good place to start over.
The weather was actually perfect when you were here. The whole week it had been windy and raining. The whole week we had all been stuck inside. Then you showed up and everything just went away. Such luck you seem to have. I wish you could have stayed longer, but I have to go to work early tomorrow and I know our son was worn out from chasing you around the park all day. I haven't seen him so happy and excited in a long time. A part of me thought that there would be a transition period, since he is so shy with new people. But a part of me knew that he would be ok. You're his dad. Kids just don't forget who their parents are I guess no matter how young.
I know that you want me to move back with you, but right now I don't think that is a good idea. I have my home here, my job here, and my friends are here. Uprooting my life right now isn't the best thing for me. I just got settled in and am starting to get use to the hustle and bustle of it all. I've met a bunch of good friends out here. He lives here. I can't just leave him. He was here for me when you weren't.
I know you don't like him. Of all the conversations that we have had you always seem to take the time to express your disgust of my interest in him. But it isn't your decision to decide. It is my life now. Not our life. I hope you will respect that. I enjoy talking to you, keeping in touch with you. But our relationship will never be as it once was. I wouldn't want to move back and give you false hope.
I just... I begged you not to take the job. And when you did, I begged you to come home. And then you did come home and I thought that it was finally going to be ok. And you told me you wanted to be separated. You told me how you didn't want to have the guilt hanging over your head of things you might do while gone. You didn't want me to call you anymore. I don't know... but, how did you expect me to react? You think that because half a year later you finally show up and say you made a mistake and that would be it? Everything would be ok? Everything would go back to the way it was? I spent half a year trying to figure out what I did wrong. Finally he came into my life and helped me see that it wasn't me who did wrong. It wasn't my fault.
I've gotten through it. I've moved on. I think its time for you to do it too. Just get the divorce papers taken care of like we talked about. Have a safe drive home.
Love,
Me
